是时候回到原点了

看看我最后一次写部落格的日期。
证明了什么？

自从我消失在我所设立的部落格，
发生了我生命中很大的转变。

在这期间，我找到了我以为将会是最疼爱我一辈子的人。
我们的感情一向来都不错。
最近看了一部练续剧， 《唐伯虎怒点秋香》。
虽然这部戏已经发行有一段时间了，
却让我从中找到了我生命中的共鸣。

很多时候，不是你情我愿，
彼此有爱意， 一起经过风风雨雨，
就命中注定在一起。

很多时候，不是互相迁就，
自己包容，容忍，忍让，
就可以长相厮守。
让我体会到，有情人不一定终成眷属。

在戏里，唐伯虎对秋香一见钟情。
堂堂一位才子，牺牲自己的形象，
为了男女私情，
到秋香主人那里当男丁。

经过了多少挫折与难题，
他们俩终于有机会在一起。
最终却发现大家志向不同。
彼此为了抓紧自己的人生目标，
宁愿放弃彼此的感情。
不强求对方，
只愿他爱的她幸福快乐。

虽然放弃一段刻骨铭心的感情很痛苦，
但，若你是真的爱他，
就该以他的幸福为中心。

不要日后勉强在一起了，
因为大家的思想，观念，性格与志向的差别，
最终换来的只是争吵，怨恨，烦恼与其他一些不必要的痛苦。

到最后，唐伯虎还是坚持自己的人身目标，
秋香还是一样留在他身边共同进退，
双方都知道自己的问题，
毫不勉强地，
当他们之间找到了共识，
才决定在一起。
这样，对大家都有利无弊。

爱情是不能勉强的，
更不能占为己有，
如果你真的爱他，
就要确定他的未来是幸福的。
分开了，也还是朋友。
再怎么说，大家都爱过，
所谓多一个朋友，好过多一个敌人。

希望大家要爱得对，不要乱爱哦！

睁一只眼，闭一只眼

在感情生活里，一定要“睁一只眼，闭一只眼”，才能持之永恒。
我在想：如果真的是这样，这还叫真爱吗？
两个人在一起，不是应该坦诚相对的吗？
不是不分彼此的吗？
不是凡事都能解决吗？

再想一想，如果真的要睁一只眼，闭一只眼
那么，我不是很笨，很吃亏？
我才不要委屈自己啊！！！

当日子久了，轮不到你说要不要。
你只能顺着去做，听天由命了
何必那么执着呢？
最终，只会伤人伤己。
问题也不会有句点。

有许多事情，我们只能看开点，
如果看清事情的真相，或许你会吃不消。
这就是所谓的“睁一只眼，闭一只眼”！！！

因此，让我们放开胸怀，
FORGIVE AND FORGET 吧！
快乐自然会多一点，
生活必定会自在点！！！

你值得被爱吗？

通常，我们都会觉得失恋是件痛苦末极的事。
搞得自己废寝忘食，值得吗？

无论是对方变了心，
或是自己选择放弃，
当爱不再像起初那样，就该结束了。
免得伤己伤人。
尽管再继续拖下去，
渴望能回到起初，
一切都已经太迟了。

在感情的世界里，
没有谁对谁错，
只因爱已消失。

何谓真爱？
真爱经得起时间的考验。
在中学时期的爱情只不过是个玩意儿。
有多少人能把中学情人当着终身伴侣？
随着岁月增长，思想成熟，经济稳定，
才能给你爱的人最好的爱情。

现代人，正常的恋爱期为短短的三个月。
过后便移情别恋，换个对象。
那又有什么益处呢？
爱一个人，是愿意等待。
与其享受那又短又不切实际的爱情，
何不耐心等待那海枯石烂的真爱。
哈哈。。。

如果那你所认为的最佳伴侣说：我们暂时不要在一起，等到我们长大了才在一起好吗？？？
你会有什么反应？
你会觉得：既然如此，我还是先找别人，过后再找回你，免得浪费我的青春。
还是在想：既然如此，我会用尽心去了解，在乎你，直到我们成熟的日子。
在这恋人未满的过程里，是最佳的试炼期。
考验两人的爱能坚持多久。
若有其中一方移情别恋，
你就知道那人并不值得你去爱！！！
当然，当时间成熟后，你将会得到永恒的爱情。
所以，朋友们，不要浪费时间在无谓的爱情里。
好好寻找你的真爱吧！！！

Be steady...

I believe most of us had ever being hurt by the people around us...
No matter the person is your parent, sibling, relative, friend and mostly your beloved one...
So, what should we do when we are hurt???

First, sad, cry...
Second, complain, say everything bad about that person...
Third, try your best to say something hurt them, pay triple back to them...
Whatever you do...
If you really love that person...
You'll not do anything bad to him/her...right???

Please la...
Be steady ma...
I am sure most of us are matured enough to handle all these things...
First, we should examine what is the main problem...
No matter whose fault it is...
Don't hurt anyone...
Try to think back, is it my own fault???
If it is really the other person's fault, yet he/she still don't want to apologize...
Then just let it be...
At least you are not wrong...

No thing will happen suddenly, without reason...
Everything happens with its own reason...
Maybe the other person had really given you tons of chances...
Yet you never treasure it..
So, when you lose the chance...
Don't blame anyone...
Chances will never stay there forever for you alone...

The other fact is, when the person hurt you, the person might not know he/she had hurt you!!!!
So, communicate properly, don't cry alone and pek chek by yourself...
Because that person might not feel a bit of sadness inside his/her heart...
However, if the fact is already there...
Just accept it and bless the person...
Because no matter how long you cry for...the fact will not change anymore...
So, be steady when we face any problems...
So that we can have a happy life...
Cheerz!!!!

What to do?

Haha..I always like to say what to do...
Cause many things are not under our control...
In fact, the incident is expected to happen...
Just that it had happened so suddenly till we haven't prepared ourselves to handle it...
In order to escape from the responsibilities,
we would say:"What to do?" instead of:"What should I do?"...

In a relationship...
There are always misunderstanding between both parties...
It always occur when what the one think is different from the other one...
Sometimes, what we concern might not be the concerns of the other party...
We might do certain action just because we think it should be in that way...
But the other one might interpret it in a different meaning...

Or, we always have the thinking of: Just let it be...
When we said: Just let it be...
We are actually escaping ourselves from the problem...
That's a coward action!!!!Haha...
And I'm the coward person~~~~

So, communication is really important...
However, if one of them is not corporating in the communication...
Then the misunderstanding will never be solved too...
In that time, you will say: What to do???

On the other hand, once the thing is solved...
The relationship should be closer...
Cause both had understand more about each other...

So, no matter who...
It's not only for couple...
It's for everyone...
Communicate the problem together...
Unless the person is uncivilized,
he/she don't want to solve the problem then bo pian lo...
Then, you can say: What to do???Haha...

So what if FORGOTTEN?????

Exactly, this is my thinking right now...
I felt like I was forgotten...
I'm alone...
I'm moody...
I'm sad...
So what???
Who cares????
Haha...Even myself, I don't care!!!

I feel like wanting to go away from here...
I don't want to see anyone...
Though it might be damn bored...
I don't care...
I just want to run away from here..
Can I????
Of cause not...
I'm just saying mad words...
It's not from my heart, actually...

So, now, I only know that..
People might despise or forget me...
But, most importantly, God remembers me...
Since I'm not on this earth for nothing....
And I must try my best to be after God's heart...

No one is ir-replace-able...

Many of us think that we are to important for that person...
As parent, we feel that without us, our children will not be able to survive...
As couple, we think that without us, the other partner will not be as happy as before...
As a friend, we feel that without us, other friends will not have such a good friend they ever had...
As I always said: WHATEVER!!!!haha....

We are just human...
And there are uncountable human in this world...
So, who do you think you are???
When you have the chance to get a position in someone heart,
you must have a deep sense of gratitude, humbly and treasure it...
Chance will never wait for anyone, you are the one who should run for the chance...

Life is short like a mist...
Without life, even you have beautiful plan, you can do NOTHING...
So, don't be silly to do those unnecessary things for NOTHING again...
Remember, our lives is entirely in God's hand...
Don't be self-important and self-reliant...

We don't know when will we leave the world..
So, do treasure the people around you...
Although no one is irreplaceable...
But at least I have got the place for that short moment...
I'm satisfied...

[like] vs [love]

Loving and liking someone is different... (nonsense)

We can like many people...
But we must only love one person (only for boy-girl relation...)
Except for the parental love la...
We can love our friends too...

We like the person because we share similar interests and characteristics...
Loving someone is when you know you will always like him/her..
No matter what...
You'll just do everything to make him/her happy..
No matter what happens...
You'll still like that person...
No other reason for you not to like him/her...
So, that's LOVE...

However, many people have the wrong perception towards love...
They think loving someone is owning that person..
Not really though...

For me, when I love someone...
I'll be satisfied enough to hear from him/her...
No point for me to make my life difficult just because I didn't get the answer from the person..
Just let the relationship grow naturally...
And be happy when loving someone...

If you think it is unworthy to continue loving that person when you can't be with him/her...
Then you are actually only liking that person, not love...

In short, love is forever...
If you had met your true love...
Just try your best to love...
However, if you really can't wait to own a person instead of loving someone..
Then try to love another person who you can own him/her...

(PS: Love is wonderful...don't make it ugly because of jealousy or dissatisfaction)

Before & After

Before July...
I am still the old me...
With my long hair..
Hehe...

Can you see what am I doing while driving?

Yeah...Eating my favorite lollipop...
There is still a large lollipop waiting for me...^^

After July...
I had my new hair style which I never had before...
Most of my friends recommended me to cut short hair since years ago..
but I was refused to change my hair style...
I was scared that it wouldn't suit me...

Anyway, I made it!!!!
Short hair style...
Easy to wash and comb...
Really suits to a lazy person like me...

No update

Long time didn't update my blog..
Really no mood to write anything..
Many of my pictures are inside my laptop..
Yet the converter was broken so cannot use it at all..
No laptop, no photoes, no post.

Many assignments to be rushed..
Actually everything is going smoothly..
Just that i am the main problem...
I am lazy, have no will to finish it..
How come ar????
Maybe I am the type of person who are always wait for the last minute...

Ohya, the weather nowadays are really driving me crazy..
Very hot ar...
Even with air-con still no difference...

Brand New Me~~

As you can see in my previous post..
I sound a bit upset and disappointed...
Although I prayed to God so many times...
Ask Him for confidence and strength...
Yet, it's very easy for me to use my own thinking again...
This is really not good...

Now then I had opened my mind...
I'm so used to complain about others...
Always angry when people are not doing things as what I had expected...
Why not I love them more instead of showing my dissatisfaction?

That's why I'm afraid of expectation...
Because I'm afraid of disappointment...

So, for anyone who ever doubt that what do friendship means...
Here is the answer...
Friendship will last longer when you learn NOT to put any expectation on him/her...

For instance, when you are organizing an event...
or you have a performance on a particular day...
You expect your friends to appear in the scene which you wish to...
So, when your friends are not there...
Or they came, but didn't support you til the end...
What will you feel???
You'll feel that what kind of friend is that???
Aren't he/she should support me not just by mouth and also by action???
Why???
Why was he/she went out while I'm performing???
Am I too lousy???
Or, I'm nothing / have no value in his/her heart???
When you have all these expectations on your friends...
You'll feel very sad and even get mad of them..

So, I've really understand how to let myself to become stronger now...
Whatever happen in my life...
I'll still try my best to love all my friends...

In short, don't expect people to love you...
We should love them first...
This is all I've learn from Jesus...

CF opening ceremony

CF means Christian Fellowship...
Finally, today had become the history in UCSI Sarawak Campus...
Thank you Lord for giving me opportunity to serve you...
I'm really unworthy...

Lord, thank you for taking away all my nervous away...
I know You are with us...
That's enough for us...
Although even our own friends are not supporting us...
But I can see that our staffs and lecturers are giving us support...

Thank you Lord for everything happened just now...
We should do things because of you, not because of people...
We should put our faith on You!!!!
Not the people around me...
If not, I'll be collapsed soon...

I'm collapsing...
I'm too weak...
Oh God, give me faith and strength...
I want to continue serve You!!!!
AMEN!!!!
Let me not affected by friendship...
It's all about you, Jesus...

Why???

Wow...I'm really fade up recently...
I know I must do all my part...
Since that's what I should do..
I'll surely do it..

BUT!!!!
If the thing cannot be done by myself...
That means it needs everyone of us to do it together...
Since you are one of them who are using or enjoying the thing and the result...
Why can't we just sit together and have our work done???

Please lar...Be more responsible...
If you don't want people to talk bad behind you...
Then you should do good things to let people talk good stuffs about you mah...
That's common sense...

However, if you had done your part perfectly yet people still want to talk bad about you..
Then just let it be...
That's their mouths, they have the right to talk whatever they like...
Most importantly is you had done your part...

I believe each and everyone of us do things according to our heart...
If in our heart, we think the thing is not important or unnecessary for us to sacrifice something to get it...
Then, you'll have thousands of excuses to escape from it..
I'm one of them too...

It's true...
If I think the thing is not meaningful to me..
I'll not even remember the words come from the person' s mouth..
If the thing is really something to me..
I'll try my best to get it done..
Logic right???

So, if someone have any excuses to escape what you had asked them to do..
Then just let it be...
Since him/herself is not really serious about it...
Why should you worry it on behalf of him/her???
Foolish lah...
Unless the person is really someone for you...
Then you try your best to worry for him/her lo..
That's your freedom though...

Now then I understand why can some people just not do their thing even though he/she know the thing is really serious and a must to do it...
Because irresponsibility is their style of living...
No point for us to angry these kind of people...

CHEERZ!!! >.<"

野蛮女友

我相信大多数的人都看过《野蛮女友》这部戏吧？
戏里的女主角是有点暴力的，看了都觉得那男主角很可怜...
可是，他们俩都是相爱的...
所以尽管对方的性格跟自己简直是天渊之别， 也在所不惜。

说真的，在现实生活里，是否真有“野蛮女友”啊？？
或许我们会觉得，那男生怎么那么笨？
这世上没有其他女生了吗？
为什么偏偏要选择去爱这种女生啊？
在外面随便挑一个都比这个温柔啦！

其实，老实说，如果我是男生，我也不会想要有个野蛮女友嘛...
哈哈...不过，我渐渐发觉，我好像是那一类的女生哦！
怎么办啊？？？

因为我天生好胜，凡事要求完美（虽然一切并不可能完美）。
我比较有主见，要就是要，不要就是免谈。
感觉不对就想吵，也很难忍受其他人做事犹豫不决，拖拖拉拉。

当我对你冷淡，不理不睬，甚至时常骂你时...
不要生气哦...
因为我知道你不会生气我，所以才会这么胆大包天的...
所以那也算是我友善的内心...哈哈...

但， 请别误会，有时候我那样对你，也是因为我真的生气了！！！
只因懒得跟你吵，所以宁愿保持安静...
也就是说，当我很生气时，我不会骂你...

那么，有谁能告诉我，野蛮女友到底是怎样的啊？？？

In memories of PINKY...

Pinky...No more Pinky...

Really SAD!!!!
And I'm the "murderer"...

As most of you know, I drive quite fast-ly...

Even my dogs knew it too...

So, everytime, they'll all run when I just started my engine...

Today, while I was reversing my car...

I knocked something...

I don't know what's that...

My mom ran out from the house and SHOUT...

Then I knew, I had knocked down my dog...

I saw it!!! It's just in front of me...

My beloved PINKY was on the ground!!!!!!!

I cried and blamed myself like a mad...

I cannot accept the truth just in front of me...

Pinky still wagging its tail...

Struggling for a while.....

And...

....

....

DIED!!!

I am a human...

I'm really hurt and sad...

I love PINKY very much...

God knew it too...

Yesterday, with no reason...

I kept taking its picture while it was playing on the field...

Below are the pics of my PINKY...

It's just too cute...

This looks nice...

Especially with it's little tongue...

Do you know what am I focusing in this pic???

**The fly on the leave...

I use this photo as my header yesterday...

After I had cried for half an hour,

my mom prayed for me, I settled down my heart

and went to campus to attend the prayer meeting and classes...

No matter what happen,

I must be strong and steady...

I'll never surrender to Satan...

I'll still live happily and glorify the name of God...

Thank you, Lord...

For comforting me by showing your grace and love to me...

May God protect me and show me Your way in my life...
Amen...

What am I doing???

No mood, really no mood...
Even my beloved blog, I also neglected it...
Why am I like this???

Too many things occurred recently...
My hand phone was dropped into the sea...
My purse was gone...
Including my IC, driving license, ATM card and some MONEY!!!

Ok, in campus...
I was not satisfied by the marks given...
I am not jealous for others getting higher marks than me...
Not blaming "them" for not giving me desired marks...
Just that I can't stand things with no logic!!!

Anyway, things will not always happen as we want it to be...
So, how? No choice...
But I still want to say...
Ok, let's see...

If I go to a kopitiam to have lunch..
I ordered fried rice...
And the tauke served me a plate of fried mee...
Then, of cause, I complain to him that this is not what I want..
Am I wrong? No, right?
But the tauke just leave the fried mee on my table and go back to his place...
With no excuse and no reason...
In common sense, I had said out the problem...
Do I have to complain once again???
In this case, will the customer feel satisfied with the service?
Even some will just keep quiet and eat the fried mee...
But, inside their heart, I don't think they are happy with that...

In fact, the tauke should immediately give me the reason...
Not putting the problem there and expect the customer to complain again...
For human with brain, no one will do things like the tauke...
But, in campus...things happened this way...
Haha...What a funny uni life is this????
Can anyone tell me the reason behind this???
That's irresponsible and not logic at all...



I asked God: Is it the devil attacking me?
Am I too weak?
Or, are you testing me?
Anyway, God...I just want to know, what you want me to learn?
You said I must learn to rely on you whenever there's anything happen...
Thank you Lord...

The power of WORDS~

Do you know that what you speak is actually powerful and will come to past?
I knew it, but, I had spoken lots of negative words EVERYDAY!!!!
Do you?hehe...

Tonight, Pastor Paul Ang preached for our Sunday service...
I really thank God for loving me and having mercy on me so much...
As usual, when anything happens, our first thinking is always negative...

If a teenage girl go home in the midnight or do not even go home, what's our first impression towards her?
I don't have to answer this, but i'm sure 99.99% of us will think passively...
There's no reason for us to think in the bright way...

The power of words!!!
As we all know, there's recession and new diseases are coming...
What can we do???
First, speak positively, don't always declare yourself or others that it's terrible....
Just say that the disease will not hit us, the recession will never affect us!!!
Be positive, steady and happy!!!

What we say can bring death or life...
Can create fear or faith...
Can determine your future and destiny...
Can create problem or solve the problem..
Can even call things which do not exist as though there are...
So, our tongue is the steering wheel of our life~
Before you speak, you control the words ; once spoken, the words control you...

There's always no harm for us to speak nice words...
You happy, I happy, Everyone happy...
Start today and you can see the results...
What you sow, what you rip...
Life is just so simple...

Say BYE BYE to our "PEK CHEK-ness..."!!!!

Why care so much?

Teamwork, yeah, teamwork...!!!!
I really can't stand when someone who is in the group, yet, not committing anything...
As if that group is none of their business..
They can still do what they like..
Whatever is happening or doing by the group, they care nothing about it...

In my point of view, a team means we have to work together..
That's why it is important to have teamwork!!!!
If no teamwork, why do we need to form a team??? Pointless...
Ok, if you are not thinking of helping anything in the group, at least, stand there la...
It's enough for you just to stand there instead of doing the things you like by your own..
That shows no responsible!!!

We are no more kids...
We should know what we have to do and what is our responsible...
I believe none of us are irresponsible people...
We should be mature enough to know what should we do on what time...

Whatever, who am i?
I am no one...
I am nothing...
Why am I care so much when others are not caring a bit of it???
Hmph...No offense in this post...
I just want to express out my feelings..
If not, I will feel really PEK CHEK ar!!!!!
Beh tahan liao...

However, I just have to do my part...
I'm willing to do...
I must not care so much about others..
Yeah???
I have no right to say anyone since I am not good as well..
I am bad...T.T

I just want to be with you...

Whenever there's any party or event,
We'll crack our head on what present should be given to that particular person..

Valentine's Day,
all the couples are thinking of giving their partner a romantic day..

Birthday,
trying our best to give the birthday guy a surprise...

Wedding Anniversary,
be the best wife/husband as possible on that day..

In short, whatever the event is, most importantly is to have the person which we care and love the most to be with us..right?

So, Mother's day is coming soon...
What do you think your mom will most probably want from you?
There is no need for you to think what's your mom's interest or things she like...
She only need you to be with her..
Remember!!!not only for that ONE day...
It's forever..

Actually, no matter what you buy for her...
It's not so crucial..
Even, you give her the same present every year, a kiss!
She'll also be so happy till she would just smile by her self whenever she is thinking of you while you are studying/working abroad...

Since when you are not having your meals together with your mom?
Since when you never share your thought or feelings to her...
Or, for most of us, we never hold her hands while walking?
I believe, when you ask your mom, what do you want?
In their mind, they are actually only thinking of one thing, that is, " I just want you to be with me.."

So, you can pretend to ask: "Mom! Do you know what I want the most?"
And let her think for a moment and tell her :" I just want to be with you..."
I am 100% sure their tears will be flowing down...

*Only applicable for those who seldom spend their time with their mom...

*For those who are always with their mom, the mother will also feel comfortable...so, no harm for us to tell mummy that "I just want to be with you!"

Oh NO!!!

Oh NO!!!
I can't blog recently...
Due to my stupid card reader or memory card...
Sien~
The card reader cannot read my memory card, and my phone cannot read my memory card, even my phone's camera is also not functioning...
So, what's the problem?

I only know I wanted to blog lots of things, BUT!!!!!
Hmph...All my pictures in my memory card are gone~~~
Duh...So sad....
The most sad is my phone cannot take picture liao...
How can it be????

What to do? I have to be steady...
Hehe...So, whenever I want to take any picture, please be kind to lend me yours, k?

Now, I can only blog "wordy-ly"....